Trusting Your Voice

Trusting Your Voice

I spent months on my first blog post. Months. When it was time to let go into the world , I made sure to have a few close acquaintances read it over. I got humbling praises.  I thought it smart– responsible, to send it to the one person I knew who is a published writer, who would also graciously consider editing it while also giving me valuable feedback. I was desperate for feed back. It was in that desperation for validation that I could slowly sense my power disappearing from my grasp. I felt like Ariel of The Little Mermaid, in that pivotal moment when she lost her voice. This sweet, well meaning person sent me my piece back, most of it was crossed out– it was too wordy. She had made comments on every sentence. Every single sentence. My art was crossed away, punctuated, and changed by small degrees. And the comments–gentle suggestions– like a soft hand on your shoulder guiding you in the right direction,...
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It’s not your fault, the universe is not punishing you

It’s not your fault, the universe is not punishing you

*Caution: Lots of cringe worthy foot pics* Nobody really wants to read about a bad experience unless some FAB or funny insight is to be had. Not that I have much fab or funny, but I did experience an unsavory event and some resulting insight. Personally, I find the story immensely boring, maybe in part because the sting of the whole situation still hasn't subsided. So to be brief I'll forward to the not-so-fun and painful outcome. I broke my fourth metatarsal, fractured a few other foot bones; had surgery to fix the broken metatarsal, and am presently exuberantly  happy that I'm finished with the dam crutches. It's been over a month and I'm just beginning to walk again. Barely. Painfully. I got on... like people do in trying circumstances,  with bouts of denial and mostly shock. After surgery, I purposely forgot the painful experience. Left crippled and freshly wounded of body and mind, I basically lost my marbles. A combination of too many big life...
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