Trusting Your Voice

Trusting Your Voice

I spent months on my first blog post. Months. When it was time to let go into the world , I made sure to have a few close acquaintances read it over. I got humbling praises.  I thought it smart– responsible, to send it to the one person I knew who is a published writer, who would also graciously consider editing it while also giving me valuable feedback. I was desperate for feed back. It was in that desperation for validation that I could slowly sense my power disappearing from my grasp. I felt like Ariel of The Little Mermaid, in that pivotal moment when she lost her voice. This sweet, well meaning person sent me my piece back, most of it was crossed out– it was too wordy. She had made comments on every sentence. Every single sentence. My art was crossed away, punctuated, and changed by small degrees. And the comments–gentle suggestions– like a soft hand on your shoulder guiding you in the right direction,...
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Part 2: Multiple Children, Motherhood, and Reality

Part 2: Multiple Children, Motherhood, and Reality

I once had visions of what my life would look like, especially my family life; the way I would raise my kids, what my house would look like. I saw myself running errands with my kids, crafting, cooking and holding frequent play dates and BBQs at OUR house. My cookie cutter parenting vision is, to be completely frank, none of the above. Yet I still long for; try to achieve, some of these varying aspects. Slowly, yet not quite completely, I've given up the reigns. Maybe it was turning the big 3-0 and I was tired of wanting instead of enjoying. Or just tired. I'm unmarried to my best friend who's the most unconventional man on earth (you can't categorize him even if we tried...unless of course, you want to be eternally perplexed) and although my kids have one of the most present and amazing fathers, I don't have the factotum (the conventional follow directions kind); let’s go out to...
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