It’s not your fault, the universe is not punishing you

It’s not your fault, the universe is not punishing you

*Caution: Lots of cringe worthy foot pics* Nobody really wants to read about a bad experience unless some FAB or funny insight is to be had. Not that I have much fab or funny, but I did experience an unsavory event and some resulting insight. Personally, I find the story immensely boring, maybe in part because the sting of the whole situation still hasn't subsided. So to be brief I'll forward to the not-so-fun and painful outcome. I broke my fourth metatarsal, fractured a few other foot bones; had surgery to fix the broken metatarsal, and am presently exuberantly  happy that I'm finished with the dam crutches. It's been over a month and I'm just beginning to walk again. Barely. Painfully. I got on... like people do in trying circumstances,  with bouts of denial and mostly shock. After surgery, I purposely forgot the painful experience. Left crippled and freshly wounded of body and mind, I basically lost my marbles. A combination of too many big life...
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Warning: Extremely candid dialog about having multiple children

Warning: Extremely candid dialog about having multiple children

*Please read with grace for me and others, these sort of admissions are hard to express, especially publicly. My hope is that we can ask better questions of each other and maybe be a bit more understanding of one another. Pay attention, if you hold some of my projections or beliefs offensive or hard to hear, they may also be a unconscious belief you hold, or not :) You all are brave and beautiful so let's dive in: It seems greedy to want two kids but three? Now that just seems excessive.. Like who do I think I am? This is the kind of self judgement I feel and why I suspiciously look at other mothers with multiple children and think: “how unfair to the child"      “the older siblings just become babysitters”       “people just have kids to fill the empty places in their hearts”      “they have lots of money so they can hire help and literally don't have...
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